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Fri, Jun. 6th, 2008 08:42 pm

Lillian Luevano
January 04, 1928 - June 04, 2008

You were the best Gramma Lily. Glad to know you're up there on our side now.

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Thu, Mar. 20th, 2008 04:33 pm

Don't like LJ much anymore. Or any blog type thing. If i get another one I am making it private and hiding. Leads to too much drama.

If anyone is curious as to why I was gone, SSDD.

Depression came back, got borderline suicidal again, went back on meds, feeling more stable now thouggh sometimes that bottle of meds and bottle of liquor seem they would go nice together.

But that's the pussy way out. Not there. Hopefully never will be again.

Anyway. Hope everyone is doing ok. I DO think of you and wish you all the best.

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Sat, Sep. 22nd, 2007 08:18 am

I LOVE MY LITTLE SISTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG!! OMG!! She took me to FINALLY see Transformers but we saw it in IMAX!!! @_______@

TRANSFORMERS KICKED FUCKING ASS!!!



It was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much more awesome than I could have ever hoped for. XD THis is officially tied as my best birthday ever with the time we went to Knotts Scary Farm.

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Sat, Aug. 11th, 2007 11:52 am




HAVEN ISABELLA BONILLA
(she was showing her displeasure at the paparazzi)
BORN: AUGUST 11TH, 2007
TIME: 5:58 AM
WEIGHT: 7lbs 4oz
LENGTH: 20 inches

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Fri, Aug. 10th, 2007 07:36 am
They are inducing my lil sis today. =) By nightfall I could be an Auntie again.

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Fri, Aug. 3rd, 2007 09:38 pm


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Thu, Aug. 2nd, 2007 11:01 pm
I'm a pretty open minded person, i TRY to not be judgmental and usually succeed.

I also have a very sick sense of humor and am a pervert of the first class.

Yet taking 50 orders a day for porn is seriously getting to me.

Not only is the account fucking boring and annoying in it's Script...some of these callers just make me feel dirty.

Ordering things like "Throat Yogurt" or "Whores in Heat", "Teen Fever", "Cum Stained Casting Couch".

The sick fuck who was all eager talking about his movie, the one "With the Boy Scouts! It's the one with the Boy Scouts right?"

Hey, I've read shota manga, have rped some stuff...but hearing some 60 year old dude almost pop a boner over the prospect of watching the fantasy of it? It literally turned my stomach. It's one thing to be eager for some porn...but just the way he sounded. My skin crawls just thinking of it.

The cream of the crop was when my friends Marsha and Yadira BOTH got some fucking digusting asshole jerking off!! He talked with Marsha first and since he actually placed an dorder, she had to wait before she could hung up on him. He wasn't finished so he called back and lucky Yadira got him.
And lets not forget the people calling to order the "Male Enhancement Cream".

NO YOU PATHETIC OLD FUCKS!! I DO NOT FUCKING KNOW HOW IT WORKS!!! QUIT ASKING ME QUESTIONS AFTER I HAVE TOLD YOU FIVE TIMES I ONLY TAKE ORDERS!!!

You have a small schlong. DEAL WITH IT!!!

It will NEVER get big enough to "hurt the woman going in". NEVER EVER EVER YOU STUPID PENCIL DICKED CODGER!! Save your money for dentures and depends.

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Sat, Jul. 28th, 2007 11:03 pm
Me: Thank you for calling "Company that sells adult entertainment". Would you like to place an order?

Guy: Yes. Do you have "item"?

Me: Yes. It is 14.99.

Guy: Ok. Can you read me the title.

Me: *sees Title is "Throat Yogurt" O_o;;; *VERY glad we are NOT allowed to read the titles out loud* Oh...the title doesn't show up sir.

Guy: Ok. How about "item"

Me:: sees title is "Extreme Size Queens":: Yes...it is the same price. Anything else?

Guy: Yes.

Me:: PRAYS he is not gonna order "Mandigo's Dick Puppets"::

Guy: I was looking for something and I couldn't find it. I'm throwing a Stag Party and was wondering if you had any beastiality.

Me: . . . *very calmly* You know sir, we are just the ordering center so I am not sure if we do. But you can check our website. They have A LOT more than what is in the catalog.

Guy: Ok! Thanks! *pays, gets wished a happy day and hangs up*

Me: . . .at least he didn't order Mandigo's Dick Puppets. *takes next call for a health insurance company*

Current Music: Faith Hill - Cry

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Thu, Jul. 26th, 2007 12:07 am

Your Score: The Idealist


You scored 38 Extroversion, 56 Intuition, 75 Emotional, and 61 Spontaneity!




INFP


INFPs are quiet, creative, sensitive and perceptive souls who often strike others as shy, reserved and cool. These folks have a rare capacity for deep caring and commitment--both to the people and causes they idealize. INFPs guide their behavior by a strong inner sense of values, rather than by conventional logic and reason. Forced to cope with this facts-and-figures "real" world we inhabit, INFPs may appear to have been imported from another galaxy! They gravitate toward creative or human service careers which allow them to use their instinctive sens of empathy and remarkable communication skills. Strongly religious, spiritual or philosophical people, INFPs may see the purpose of their lives as an inner journey, quest or personal unfolding. More practical or rational types may tend to discredit the INFP's sources of understanding as mystical. The search for a soulmate is a preoccupation for many INFPs, who must balance their need for privacy and peace with their yearning for human connection. If there seems to be an air of sadness in the INFP's spirit, blame it on this type's longing for the perfect in all things.


Relationships

INFPs present a calm, pleasant face to the world. They appear to be tranquil and peaceful to others, with simple desires. In fact, the INFP internally feels his or her life intensely. In the relationship arena, this causes them to have a very deep capacity for love and caring which is not frequently found with such intensity in the other types. The INFP does not devote their intense feelings towards just anyone, and are relatively reserved about expressing their inner-most feelings. They reserve their deepest love and caring for a select few who are closest to them. INFPs are generally laid-back, supportive and nurturing in their close relationships. With Introverted Feeling dominating their personality, they're very sensitive and in-tune with people's feelings, and feel genuine concern and caring for others. Slow to trust others and cautious in the beginning of a relationship, an INFP will be fiercely loyal once they are committed. With their strong inner core of values, they are intense individuals who value depth and authenticity in their relationships, and hold those who understand and accept the INFP's perspectives in especially high regard. INFPs are usually adaptable and congenial, unless one of their ruling principles has been violated, in which case they stop adapting and become staunch defenders of their values. They will be uncharacteristically harsh and rigid in such a situation.


Strengths

Warmly concerned and caring towards others

Sensitive and perceptive about what others are feeling

Loyal and committed - they want lifelong relationships

Deep capacity for love and caring

Driven to meet other's needs

Strive for "win-win" situations

Nurturing, supportive and encouraging

Likely to recognize and appreciate other's need for space

Able to express themselves well

Flexible and diverse




Link: The Ultra Ultimate Personality Test written by zip_adeedoodah on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

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Wed, Jul. 25th, 2007 10:39 pm

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=43797652

This band is a TRIP. It's carnival music...but in the style of rock. And I think alternative? Weird combo but entertaining never the less.

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Tue, Jul. 17th, 2007 09:22 am

Ten years. He molested him for ten years. Well, the kid MUST have liked it. -- My Aunt in regards to a priest on charges of molestation.


I just sat there staring when I heard her say that. My Aunt is normally the kindest, most caring and generous person you could meet. But when it comes to her beloved church...she has a blind spot a mile wide.

She always seems to forget that even though the priests are SUPPOSED to represent god and are SUPPOSED to be above all this...they are, in fact, HUMAN. therefore HOPELESSLY FUCKING FLAWED.

I swear...what is it about religion that can turn otherwise intelligent, sane people into fucking idiots? Oh yeah, BLIND faith isn't just a name for a band.

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Mon, Jul. 16th, 2007 11:03 pm

--- Depression is circling again. >_> I need to call my doc and get an appt...been over a month

--- Fleas have invaded my gorram room and nothing I do is getting rid of them

--- Got to see my aunt after two years. Been fun hanging with her. Though I do have to watch myself since she is more conservative than I

--- Seeing my family in a whole new light and it's not a flattering one

--- Got told by five people I've lost a lot of weight. About 25lbs in 4 months I think

--- Audrey might not be the cutest baby in the world, but she is way ahead of whomever is in second place

--- Katie is gonna pop any day now. ^^;; Can't wait too see my Turtle

--- I had BETTER fucking get to see Transformers in theaters

--- Don't really care if I see Harry Potter though. =) So sick of those books. XD I just wanna read to see what that dumb bitch is gonna do next.

--- The library Had the entire FAKE series and the first 3 vols of Angel Sanctuary. @_@ It was pants happiness time for Tepha

--- WHY? For fucks sake WHY do so many people order One Night In Paris?

--- Hope you all are having a slammin good time!

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Wed, Jul. 4th, 2007 09:23 am

HAPPY KICKING THE BRITISH'S ASS DAY EVERYONE!!!!!


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Sat, Jun. 30th, 2007 11:38 pm

Immigration bill failed.

FUCK!!!

This impacts someone who is very near and dear to my family.

Can this person not catch a fucking break?

It's not they sit on their ass and collect welfair.

They work when they can, doing roofing, painting, carpentry.

Who the hell else would tar a roof in 110 degree weather?

Or literarlly spend 12 hours moving and rearanging furniture and cleaning an entire house just to help someone?

Fuck the fucking bastards who screwed all immigration laws and fuck the fucking beaurcrats who can't get their fucking heads out of their asses.

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Sat, Jun. 30th, 2007 11:26 pm
I do not fucking need this shit.

My dad's friend/girlfriend/fuckbuddy/whateverthefucksheisrightnow is fucking drunk.

I had to help her up because she sat on the ground and couldn;t stand. When i did I nearly passed out she reeked so strongly of alcohol.

I hate being around drunk people and I fucking hate smelling alcohol on someomes breath.

She and my dd have been friends for 35 years and she is almost a second mom to mysisters and I but oh my god I could beat her fucking head in right now.

I wish I was alone so I could ust hold Cookie's ashes and cry.

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Tue, Jun. 26th, 2007 09:31 pm

Monday, I wake up and te first thing I do is look over to see if Cookie is still breathing, like to do every morning.

Then, twice, i started to call her to follow me out of the room so I wouldn;t lock her in.

Needless to say, I ws feeling less than chipper on the way to work.

I step in the door and get 10 feet before i break down sobbing.

Luckily my boss is an animal lover and gave me a week off.

It comes and goes. Monday I spent all day crying or fighting back tears. Thank the gods I have my niece. Been at my dads for the past 2 days, am prolly gonne stay the rest of the week. Doesn't hurt so bad all the time but I stll catch myself tearing up. Again, thank you all gods for my Bump.

Thursday I go pick up her ashes. Tht is gonna fucking suck so badly.

Too all the well meaning people who tell me to not cry, think of the good times, be happy she is not suffering...thank you, really but FUCK. OFF.

Thinking of the good times hurts worse because I know I can never have them. So, just let me cry and work through it on my own. Hugs are welcomed, condolences yes...but do NOT tell me to not cry and just be happy she isn;t hurting. i AM happy her pain is gone, but it's gonn take a bit longer for mine to go away.

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Thu, Jun. 21st, 2007 11:31 am



MAY 31, 1991 - JUNE 21, 2007

16 YEARS OF UNCONDITIONAL LOVE & LOYALTY.
NOW I TAKE YOUR PAIN
AND MAKE IT MY OWN




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Wed, Jun. 20th, 2007 08:23 pm

ZOMBIE WALK FUCKING ROCKED!!!!!!

PICTAS COMING SOON!!


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Tue, Jun. 19th, 2007 10:33 pm

So tomorrow is the big zombie walk my cousin has been planning. We got a bit carried away designing our costumes and literally spent 30 minutes ripping old clothes to shreds.

Then she decided to do a test run of the make up on my arm...here are the results.





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Sun, Jun. 17th, 2007 09:32 pm
Katie, stop stealing my burgers. XD!!!!!!!!! *laughs self stupid*

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Sun, Jun. 17th, 2007 03:20 pm

. . .

W.T.F.!?!?!?!?


I was able to sit through 2 minutes of this damn show before turning it off in disgust. Could they PLEASE stop milking the Irwins for every last drop of money? Ugh!!!

A memorial on the 1 year anniversary? Yeah, I can see that. But a whole new show with just clips of he and his kid? Sweet and heart wrenching but mein gott. It's just too much.

STOP CAPITALIZING ON HIS DEATH YOU MONEY HUNGRY BASTARDS!!!!

Current Music: Black Cat on You Tube

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Fri, Jun. 15th, 2007 07:50 am

If you pray, pray my stepdad can find tickets to Ozzfest.

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Thu, Jun. 14th, 2007 08:16 pm
*FACEDESK!!!* Raaaaaaaaarg. So I wound up having to pay 130.00 for a class I never took because my fee waiver had expired and I was a year too late to petition. I now have to pay an extra 110 to retake the class and spend I think $90 for the book. The thing that super sucks? I made $400 too much last year to qualify for a fee waiver. XD!! *twitch* I do not know if I even wanna take the class over the summer now or if I should just wait till fall semester so I can apply for a FAFSA waiver.

I will sleep on it and then decide tomorrow.

Though class starts on the 18th. ^^;; I am so not prepared.

Current Music: Alton Brown cooking squid

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Tue, Jun. 12th, 2007 10:53 pm

Devil May Cry - Getting turned into an anime

God of War - Getting turned into a movie

Mortal Kombat - Third movie in production

The Golden Compass - IS a movie

Dragonriders of Pern - Plans to make it a movie, was almost a tv series (FUCK YOU WB!!!)


Devil May Cry - that prospect is GREAT cause for pants happiness.

God of War - I have SO many misgivings. The game is...@___@ I wanna buy a ps2 JUST so i can play that freaking game! But a live action movie? x_x Rarg.

Mortal Kombat - The games and first movie were a HUGE part of my life growing up. Even when my sisters and I were fighting, even when shit was bad...we always could play the game and escape reality for a bit. 2nd movie was so bad I actually cried with disappointment. If the third movie sucks I might have to invest in some razors and cure albums. *ducks the axes from Jenji* >_>;;; lol

The Golden Compass - My older sis LOVES this book series so I am excited for her. ^^;;; I just put in a request at the library for the entire trilogy. (Golden Compass, Subtle Knife, Amber Spyglass) I will reserve judgment until I read them myself.

Dragonriders of Pern - This...wow. The books that helped my 10 year old self's love of dragons grow and flourish into the borderline obsession it is (and spawned 4 awesome RP characters). There is sooooo much that can go wrong and sooooo much that could go right. I look forward to it with both deep dread and anticipation.

Current Music: Blue October - Hate Me

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Sun, Jun. 10th, 2007 11:07 pm

Creativity has come back. >_> Unfortunately it came back due to me needing to vent my spleen after being caught in the middle of more petty family squabbles. The following is very dark. Nothing amusing about it. Just me needing to bleed the feelings tears couldn't wash away. Kudos to whomever gets the title.

The Poison You Drink )

Current Music: Blake Shelton - Don't Make Me

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Sun, Jun. 10th, 2007 09:31 am

There is now a tv show about Madea. *heads to tbs.com to check it out*

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Sat, Jun. 9th, 2007 08:35 pm

x_x 11 and a half hour shift today. Got two hours of training, or rather "reviewing" on the most dreaded and hated accounts at work.

Impressed two clients to the point they singled me out. XD Go me!

I am officially a purveyor of "adult entertainment". XD GO ME!!!

Despite the fact I am exhausted and every time I move my arms they hurt and cause the muscles in my chest to hurt, I feel good. XD I mean, I wanna cry, but I still feel good!

Hee hee shrek is on. XD GO ME!!!!

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Thu, Jun. 7th, 2007 09:30 pm
http://www.pandora.com This place is awesome.


Saw Bump today. XD!!! Mein gott this little girl owns my heart.


Have appt tomorrow to go to my old college and TRY straighten everything out. I gotta contest the grade I supposedly got and the limit was 2 years. o.0 Since it was August of 2005 I am making it by the skin of my ass. The whole situation, while frustrating, yes, is actually hysterically funny to me. It's like something out of a sitcom.

Work is...interesting as usual. We sell porn now and "male enhancement" cream. Along side this, we sell children's toys and upscale furniture and foodstuffs. Seriously, call center work is hell but you see the most interesting stuff.

Back to losing weight instead of gaining it. Pants that used to be second skin are now comfortably loose. XD Here's to hoping they get even looser. Thanks teh Opals. *zombies opal*

I am on the upswing. Wooooo!! Was on a bad downswing the past few months, but it is better. A lot better.

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Tue, Jun. 5th, 2007 09:10 am

Soooo, I forgot am registered at LACCD with a middle initial of "L" instead of "A" so it held up my readmission. Now I've got to wait for an email to get some forms, print them at work AND get them faxed over to prove I am who I say I am. x_X;;; This is too damn funny. I keep waiting for the camera people to pop out of the woodwork.

On the plus side, the lady who helped me on the phone was REALLY sweet and emailed me all the forms like a minute after we hung up. ^_^ Tepha is going back to school to at least get her flipping A.A.

And on a side note, my aunts askd me to watch my two cousins. x_x I look forward to that with both dread and anticipation.

Whee for being able to have some people to go on bus trips with me and I generally get along great with both my cousins. Boo for basically having two jobs and school which means no day off for myself.

XD I am still looking forward to it.

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Sun, Jun. 3rd, 2007 09:04 pm

So my cousin comes to me right now and hands me this.


If you live in the Los Angeles County area (or any place on earth) and you wanna come, then do so! Also, if you want to help get the word around, print copies of this flier and pass them around or leave them in places with a lot of foot traffic!


And if any of my friends who are good at photoshop could could color this...I will love you forever and so will my cousin.

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